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I've been thinking a lot lately about all sorts of things. One great thing about having some time off from school is that the musings that are usually put on the back burner in favor of studying get to take a front seat for a while. Primarily, they've been circling around what it really means to be free, to live in freedom.  Freedom from guilt, from self-absorption, and from consumption.  

I've had the opportunity to wrestle with the daily and eternal implications of living life in a culture absolutely overwhelmed with consumption.  Or maybe I'm the only one overwhelmed by it? 

I want to want less. It's a process, to be sure.  The hours I have spent looking for more things to want (thankfully, the guilt is another thing I am free from)!  There are obviously financial benefits to consuming less, but I am much more concerned about what living a life on constant consumption is doing to my soul.  Because it's not pretty.

Anyway, I'm not full of answers here, just sharing what's been on my mind for about a year.  I'm just now getting to really mull it over.  One thing I do know is that rampant consumption is toxic to the kind of life I want to be a part of.   There is much much more on this to come (once I start paying attention to the lessons I'm to learn, I find it everywhere).  And I'm eager to chat with my friend Sarah about this, because she is way smarter and more enlightened than me (and don't let her tell you otherwise). 

So I want to be free.  Free from the chains of consumer culture.